Monday, December 27


I'm quite distraught because one of my paternal uncles was rushed to the hospital due to gout. We've been through a lot, we've all been through emotional strain but all of it are slowly being healed, if possible nga, kalimutan na lang lahat. Besides, tumatanda na silang magkakapatid...buti nga si Daddy medyo nakalimutan na 'yung rift nila before. Anyway, it was sad lang dahil kaka-Pasko pa lang, he could spend the turn of the year sa hospital bed. I was touched too pag umiiyak sya either because of pain or when he makes kwento about how my Dad calls him and, knowing my Dad, di nauubusan ng stories yun, so ang sayasaya nya. Andun din yung ibang relatives namin na meron talagang misunderstanding between us pero, yun nga, nagbatian din naman, kahit hindi thoroughly nakapag-usap. It's sad to think na pag mga ganung instances lang nagkakaron ng chance to be together, tapos awkward moments pa. I hope everything will be okay soon. Hindi man perfect as there's no perfect life, pero yung worry-free lang.

On the other hand, I'm happy because I already have my Starbucks planner!!! Yipee!! I invited my Mom for coffee lang para isang sticker na lang ang kulang ko tomorrow. Ewan ko ba bakit naisip ko kumuha na ng 3 para makuha ko na yung planner. Yipee, almost heaven ang feeling, ang astig nung planner!! Parang ayoko sulatan, wahahaha!!! Basta it will reflect the kikay, disorganized and weird sides of me.

Medyo guilty din kasi on the steps of Starbucks in Manila Pavilion merong mag-ina na naka-upo doon. Kawawa. Guilt-trip talaga, isipin mo naghihirap silang ganun samantalang ako, bumili ng kape worth P350 para lang makakuha ng planner! Even if I tell myself na yung pinambili ko naman nun e pinagtrabahuhan ko, nakakaguilty pa rin talaga pag nakakakita ka ng ganoon. Tsk.

May feeling din na nasa limbo kasi may pasok na naman bukas. I should really be thankful at hello, wala akong karapatang magreklamo dahil maganda ang trabaho ko. Pero hindi ako excited pumasok bukas. Hindi ko alam kung anong motivation pa ang kailangan ko. I gave up on my hunch na baka kelangan ko magka-boyfriend para mainspire. (Hehe.) Walang connection ang boyfriend sa pagiging interesado sa trabaho. Ewan ko rin ha pero I gave up on the theory two weeks ago. Siguro lalo lang akong nawalan ng gana dahil sa glitch nung promotion. Tss.

Sunday, December 26

Judie and my wish list (not too late for one..calling my friends out there...)

The two albums I most want to have:

I know I am not known to like rock music but I loved Switchfoot since I heard Meant To Live. Dare You To Move is also gawd.

If I can find you now, things will get better...We can leave this town and run forever...

And three books I've been looking for but pfft (either I don't have enough money to afford it or there are no stocks):


I once thought to give this as a Christmas gift for my bosses but decided not to. I don't wanna share it. Ayan tuloy wala akong makita.

I have been tagged "odd" by no less than the Consul General because of this choice (well, not really for this choice alone but this one alongside with Zsazsa Zaturnnah and Kiss My Tiara..which has the subtitle How to Rule the World as a Smartmouth Goddess).

And oh, Judie.

Judie is a pig. She is part of "and friends" of Hongkong's Pork Chop and Friends. These pigs are the ones you see in Humor Post. I used to pass by Judie even though not a few people commented that I should make Judie my fave character instead of Tigger, since, you know, her name is Judie and she's fat, and my name is Judith and I am..ehem. But I love Tigger so much already so I won't give him up. As you will notice, I've been signing my name in tagboards and guestbooks as "Judie Tigger" and not Juditigger...because yes, I looorve Judie the pig now. However, liking her will entail spending more because Judie stuff from Humor Post are darn expensive. Simple yet expensive. But heck, I love her now.

So, how's your Christmas?

Mine's okay. It was different from all my past Christmases but it's still fun. We had too many people yesterday, err, until now, and it's such a happy sight seeing relatives chat about anything (plus they have gifts for me..harhar!).

It was different this year because I was ill. Last Friday night, after taking a bath, I noticed super red rashes all over my chest, neck and nape. And well, my face. I thought it was because of my loofah but hey, I don't scrub my face with my loofah so it's gotta be something else. Then they said it was German measles. The outbreak came 36 hours after I came from a whole night of fever, the first that I had it the longest, according to my Mom. Good thing I was strong enough not to be in bed so there was no need to go to the hospital. All I took were home medications and of course, isolation from the rest of the people in the house, visitors included. And they say it gets worse when you're hit by air (though it's impossible to not be hit by air, otherwise, how would I survive 'no?) so I'm on my second day now of just staying in the room, reading or watching, or yes, going online and funny that I don't feel dull at all (except for the heat). I got to say customary "Hellos" and "Merry christmases" to the visitors afterwhich I went back upstairs again, especially if there were kids. As of this moment, I still have traces of the rash in my chest, belly and left thigh but I'm thankful na rin that they subsided easily. I really need to go out soon because I still need 3 stickers for my Starbucks planner!

And oops, I have to confess that I did go out once yesterday. As in I sneaked out for a while and went outside because I need to buy a new internet card. That's two blocks of "getting hit by (polluted) air". Nothing happened naman, my condition didn't worsen. I dunno if nobody noticed me because of all the activity in the house or they just decided to forget about it because nothing bad happened (I think it's the former). I was just struck when I saw garbage men doing business as usual on Christmas. You know, yung mga tao ng Leonel Waste Management riding the blue garbage truck. It makes you realize na sobrang napakaswerte mo na at that day, you got to prepare food not just for your consumption, but for other people's, na madaming natitira dun sa mga food, then aside from that you get to exchange gifts..tapos yung mga taong yun, ayun, namumulot at nagso-sort ng basura. Kung pwede lang na lahat tayo pare-pareho na lang ng estado sa buhay. I mean, hindi naman yung equal sharing ng wealth or possession pero yung equal opportunity lang to have something on the table, to have something new to wear, or to be able to share. Ang possession naman is still a preference, pero it will be better kung walang ganung sight pag Pasko..grabe, nakakaiyak talaga!

And it may seem to be a lousy spinoff but I am planning to watch 4 movies of the Metro Manila Filmfest: Mano Po 3, Happy Together (like ko si Kris Aquino eh, mwehe!), Panaghoy sa Suba and Aishite Masu (in Korina Sanchez parlance, it's 'ayshite masoo' - hehe!). See, pwede naman palang gumawa ng matitinong movies eh. Sana tuloy tuloy na. A support base cannot be made easily, it should be built on trust and credibility. Minsan kasi they give up easily eh..yung ibang filmmakers. They get to produce good films na syempre sa start, it will not be supported, hindi kikita, kaya ayun, balik na naman sa mga walang kakwenta-kwentang mga productions, o di kaya ginagawa lang twice a year...pang-Manila Filmfest at eto nga pang-Metro Manila Filmfest. Since they gamble on making these films, I hope they would gamble more pa until maukilkil (hanep, lalim) sa perception ng moviegoers that movies like those are what we should support and we should not settle for so-so films. I believe it could work. So going back to my choices, I hope I get to watch the four soon.

Kayo naman, kwento kayo ng Christmas nyo.

Friday, December 24

I've been meaning to blog at length for the longest time but just can't. Two parties were over, I had my very first facial session, I bought a new less sleek digicam, I bought 4 more books, I finished my Christmas shopping (read: Tutuban and Divisoria) in the nick of time, I got sick, I got promoted (which I will get to blog about soon because I really feel indifferent), I finished my 48th book (I plan to make it a flat 50 before 2004 ends) and I have not blogged about them.

However, I will join the bandwagon and greet my blog visitors a sincere

Merry, Merry, Merry Christmas!!

These two words should say it all. May God bless you and your family.

P.S. Josh, if Ninang would be lucky, I will see you either the third week of January or the second week of February. That is, if Ninang got lucky. I may not hand over the robot that you want but..basta, I'll tell you about if and when I get lucky. All my love to you, your Mama, Papa, kuya Gab and Kuya Raf.

Tuesday, December 21

four days before christmas and i am not feeling well. i hate it when i can't speak, when there's like a cactus in my throat. i hate it when i can't smell anything because it follows that i cannot taste food, too. this is so much torture.

69 christmas cards. i've only filled out five. if it's any consolation, the envelopes have been written on so i won't confuse who to give the cards to. merry christmas.

Sunday, December 19

and time gets a little more...little?

i returned the "kewl" and "chic" panasonic digicam BUT i got a new one. half the price, less chic, but i am learning to be contented. and i am not really a photography freak with all the techie blahdiblahdiblah. i am a camwhore, yes, but simpler gadgets can accomodate that syndrome of mine. plus, money became more important, moreso this part of the year till the second quarter of next year, so there.

2 new books. 2 new vcds. 4 dvds to go tomorrow.

yes, i am going to confess. it terribly shows but let it come from me. YES. I AM A MAR ROXAS-KORINA SANCHEZ fan. they are kinda awkward to be "kilig icons" but i feel kilig when i see them or read things about them. when i was about 11, i had the same for richard gomez and dawn zulueta. huwaha. it fizzled, of course, because they broke up and married different people. this time, i won't let it happen to mar and korina. nyaha!!!! how creepy is that? and what if, say, they break up and korina ended up with....noynoy aquino? and mar ended up with...err...kris aquino? kinda awkward no? but hell, they are getting married. i just hope it's for keeps. coz if not, it will be my second failure. it will take anoher decade to find a good loveteam and i will be 32 by then so it will make it doubly dyahe.

i'm really weird.

Thursday, December 16

so many thoughts, so little time.

don't hold your breath, but it seems that it's goodbye-to-my-whim-called-digicam for me! yep. i dunno. i returned the digicam as pictured below. details when i have the time to post longer.

i've only been employed here for 1 year and 11 months and so far, this week and the next, and probably the next two, will be the busiest ever! as in! maybe that's why i snap so easily!

so many thoughts, so little time. hay naku.

Monday, December 13

Songs of the moment:

La La by Ashlee Simpson (masochista, I know)
I Don't Wanna Be by Gavin deGraw
Everythin' Changes by Keane

I calculated that they play as a set 5x in succession within a one-hour period. I am now on my 3rd hour. Wee.

Friday, December 10

first serving.

whew, our consular holiday party is over. more about it tomorrow. i am so tired tonight and tomorrow, we have to be in the office before 9 am for the credit union general assembly. hay.

belated happy birthday to my ate liza, whom i was so "comatose" to greet on her 25th year (yes, she probably stopped counting a gazillion years ago).

somebody explained to me the mechanics surrounding the credit cooperative lending system. kasi i complained why my dividend is so low, wala pang 100 pesos!! eh kasi pala i am not borrowing money from the union, ergo, i don't help in making it subsist. kasi di ba credit unions subsist through members loaning in/significant amount of money? so even if it was too late, i decided to join the bandwagon. tutal, mag-papasko naman, it won't hurt to have some money. kaso yun nga, wala rin...because...i bought this:

this is one of panasonic's d-snap's actual model is SV-AS10. it's super slim. more importantly, it's not just a digicam and (short) video recorder, it's also an mp3 player!
i have not paid it in full. heck, i have not given my first payment! pero many people are saying it's a good deal. it's brand new and has one minor glitch, not with the gadget itself...all of the components are in good working condition...basta meron sa periphery nya na nagulat ako. but this is the kind of prob that resourcefulness can resolve. i will share it soon if it's already pissing me off.
grabe, i'm so sleepy na. hope to post pics from the party tomorrow. by the way, do grab a copy of people asia's yearender issue. it will be available this monday.

Thursday, December 9

i've been so busy! brr, i'm supposed to like this passion but it tires me so much! nakakawindang ha! sorry to all those who texted/emailed but heard nothing from me. so sorry. i read--run my eyes through the words--pause and shrug...kasi wala akong naintindihan. bwahahaha!!

but i have so many good news....

pero post ko na lang after this hullabaloo is over. it will be over by saturday.

11 stickers to go and hello planner na ako...

i bought something pero di pa full payment kaya saka ko na lang i-sheshare, huwahaha...

next post na lang!

Sunday, December 5


every saturday, after gilmore girls, i chat with patty, tammy and marie. sorry, no-show na naman ako!! allow me to explain, puhleez...after gilmore girls, somebody had to use the phone, mga 30 minutes lang daw (lang...hmm..), so i said, sige, i'll read muna. eh yun nga, di na ako nagising. as usual, no one bothered to wake me up. sori!!!


grabe, everytime i bloghop, people are raving about their new starbucks planner or how many stickers to go na lang and they would have it na. napepressure ako!! hahaha!! inggiterang palaka. eh totoo lang, i would not feel this way if not for the barrista in starbucks rob. while waiting for my frappe, i was looking at basta yun..then he casually commented that many people actually claimed na their planners!! ipressure ba ako?? eh kasi naman ako lang bumubuno nung akin. there are times di na me nakakapag-coffee kasi late na ako umuuwi from work. di bale, 14 stickers na lang naman. kayang kaya ko na i-bribe sina joy, girl, eiselle, erwin, tita ditos, tita beth, noime, jacs, jen, karen to have coffee with me..o di ba...ilan na ako pa...11...three stickers to go and hello planner na ako!!! ganyan ako ka-pathetic! hay.

tooth problem.

something's wrong with my bluetooth adaptor (adapter?). di ko alam what's wrong. basta it says it can't connect eh umiilaw ilaw naman yung gadget. nag-restart na ako ng fone, nag-restart ng PC...ganun pa rin. nung una it only says it exceeded the allowable bluetooth limit ba yun?? i have a hunch pero i'm hoping hindi naman yun...eto kasi yun: i was on my reading time when somebody texted me, as in three yun in succession so di ko napigil to accept yung 1 bluetooth message from "Nokia 7650" ayun...caribe.sis..tsk tsk...i actually didn't look around, baka makita ko sa isang sulok ng starbucks yung naka-grin na spawn of satan, nakatingin sa akin and has "gotcha!" written all over his/her face. alam nyo ako pag nagagalit di ba?? as in, if words could kill, i could annihilate a community in minutes. so ayun..i immediately deleted it, restarted my fone...and nothing went wrong naman eh. i was able to transfer images pa din for what? two weeks more? then eto na nga...simula lang kagabi. huhuhuhu. help naman o. i will try to transfer images to other capable phones tomorrow...if it works, it's maybe just my own adapter here at home. sana.

Saturday, December 4

so, whatchatink? i was not thinking straight when i chose the new colors.

eiselle...speak up! is this okay? huh? okay na? sagot ka please?? pwede na?

Friday, December 3


i cannot read 100 pages in an hour anymore. i hate it. i can do it even with interruptions like text and occasional bouts of daydreaming but now...hmph! to think that i'm into a chicklit!


i do not earn that much but it's been my habit to plan ahead the things that i like to spend my money with, days before actually receiving the payslip. it works well, in some ways. sometimes, i plunge into this wishful thinking, listing down from memory the things i want to buy IF i have more than what i just receive (i guess we all have that phase, ayt?). then you're snapped back to reality, where there are kids barely having something to eat. i have that guilty feeling everyday. especially when my ride waits for the green light in the intersection of san andres and osmeƱa highway. tonight, as i was thinking and almost drooling over bags and shoes and books, i decided to give susan's pumpkin bread, which is supposed to be my pasalubong for mom, to the poor little kids singing christmas carols beside my window. sama ng ugali ko, man. i fret over not being able to buy stuff that i can do without while all the while, many people do not even have half of what i have (or at least expect every two weeks). salbahe. ano nga yun sa 7 deadly sins?

identity crisis.

speaking of susan's pumpkin bread, eiselle said that it's the bread with an identity crisis. kasi by its look and mere taste, di mo malaman kung banana cake o fruitcake. ewan!


i will change the colors of my template for the billionth time. parang feel ko yung lighter colors. wala lang. violent reactions pag di nyo type ha?!

Thursday, December 2

while i'm typing this now, winds are howling like beasts outside. among all of the 2-story houses in our street, ours has the highest ceiling that's why we can really hear how ferocious the winds are (or is it the wind? so parang, the wind is howling like a beast? ewan.). hindi pa naman sound proof at shock proof ang windows namin, unlike "kris aquino's 51st floor condo unit". bwaha.

seriously, the events since monday kept me disheveled but apathetic. i am in denial. the tragedy that struck real, quezon is too close to home. for the longest time, Real remains quite unpopular among quezon province's towns. whenever i mention it, people would ask where it is. usually, the other part of quezon, the side near bicol, was what comes to mind first. it was sad to see that Real will be known and be put in the map because of the landslide tragedy. it's just so sad.

the ravaged town of Tignoan was where my mom grew up. fortunately, the now-known maragondon was where my lola chose to live until now (and even at the height of the storm refuses to go here in manila muna--pastar tlaga!! hehe!!), and it was the last place a vehicle can trek, and the rest would be a tedious walk for about 25 kilometers more, to reach Tignoan. my mom told me that landslides were commom occurrences there even before, the only difference was that a helluva more trees were still there, and that it was not a shocking case of super soil erosion. my mom is really affected because some of her friends, whom she has not seen for more than 2 decades, were being featured in the news, dead. i do not watch the news lately because i do not want to see what has happened in Tignoan. last i heard from my mom and uncle, the entire tignoan and its underlying barangays were wiped out, a lot of people were dead and still not found...i just can't bear to see it because it was not theplace i used to know. ganon siguro ako mag-cope sa refusing to see what's happening.

more than four years ago, i went to Tignoan with my college friends for an anthropology project with the dumagats. Tignoan was already fluorishing then but still managed to keep the paradise-looking beaches and scenic views. that's how i would want to remember it na lang.

as of press time, my cousins in maragondon were texting me that many of the people they know (classmates, orgmates, acquaintances) wound up dead. but they were thankful, and so am i, because they were able to help those who have not been able to salvage anything. marami na raw sila naipamigay na damit at nagbagsak presyo na yung mga tinda sa grocery ng lola ko ..hehe. which is good. i thank God talaga na kami na lang yung tumutulong kesa kami ang tinutulungan. i believe, more than her shallow reasons, helping out is one, if not the only, reason why my lola decided to stay there. she could come here since monday pa to let things pass lang but she won't budge. siguro, she loved Real all these years, refusing to leave it for any place, why would she leave it now di ba?

as of now, i am praying na lang that yoyong will not be as destructive as predicted. if there is a great opportune time for PAGASA to fail with their predictions, it is now with this storm. classes are suspended at all levels na since 7 pm tonight...i am quite positive wala na rin ang offices tomorrow but i'm still hoping otherwise. aside from prayers, that's the best i can do to other people. eh ano ba naman kung pumasok ka...talaga namang may pasok kapag biyernes. just goes to show na may pasok bukas ibig sabihin, maayos ang panahon, bumagyo man the night before, it was not as destructive. man, this isn't the time to be selfish.

speaking of office, we were forced to leave by 3 pm, kasi nga daw babagsak yung bagyo ng 4 pm. wala rin naman...but I, among a few pthers, were on active watch. kasi i live near the embassy and there are instances na kailangan ng staff to attend to several yung pag-help ng US govt, samin icocourse through yan, yung concerns ng amcits na may relatives na andito, etc etc etc. basta they will just call daw and a shuttle will pick me up...and take note, there is no time specified. kesehodang 1 am pag kailangang mag-shift, kasama ka sa pagpipilian. for my part, it would be so cool. pero i'm not hoping for it coz if it happens it spells more doom for other people badly hit by the storm. kaya may emergency staffing kasi something grave happened. so sana wag.

oh man, nagfufluctuate na ang power dito sa amin, baka sumabog na avr ko anytime. whew. let's just continue praying shall we?

Tuesday, November 30

i didn't go to the office this morning. kasi ba naman, i slept with all my windows open kaya ayun, i felt like hardened cement paggising ko. mwehe. anyway, i conditioned myself kaya nakapasok na rin ako ng after lunch. and whew, tons of work to do. i don't want to blog about how these new bosses are making our work harder. as in. kasi eh...hmph.

anyway, over the weekend, i got to watch angels in america. three of the four people i talked to did not like it. hello, why naman?? it is not as real as one expects. hello. maybe if you've read american gods by neil gaiman you'll be able to appreciate this tv movie more. i have not gotten to the 2nd part though...and i am hoping na that dvd i bought won't fail me. i bought it for P75 in divisoria. akalain ko bang more than 6 hours ata yung buong yun. di ko kinaya, i only watched the 1st part which had three chapters. wala pang gaanong moments si meryl streep, so i believe yung pang-award moments nya eh nasa second part...she gets to play different roles. well, many of them did. al pacino was in his shittiest best..o baka may hangover pa rin ako dun sa role nya sa insomnia, which i also watched last saturday naman. and oh, jeffrey wright as belize is undeniably the best. basta. galing nya. that resto scene alone got me. and appearance pa lang...former drag queen slash nurse na kalbo..san ka pa? hehe. basta galing. but ten, based on what i watched pa lang, justin kirk as the homosexual prior walter was also good. please try to see it. i will finish the 2nd part this weekend. i am refraining from reading different sites about it nga eh..just don't want spoilers.

at hindi pala sira dvd player namin kasi nag-play yung spongebob na dvd ni eiselle. wee, sobrang aliw ako. i finished disc 1 of the first season...all 20 episodes (?). will finish disc 2 this weekend din. i also started 13 going on 30. okay lang...vcd naman kasi eh kaya i stopped muna after the first disc. tinamad lang ako.but the movie is funny. light. okay lang.

my blood pressure is down to 90/60 again. dapat ka bang nagpapakuha ng BP if you have your period? that could have made the difference. at any rate, my Mom won't accept any justification for staying up late. hokey.

Saturday, November 27


random pics from erwin's last day in niv. nothing extraordinary..kami-kami usual..mga pa-vain!!

Yan...paganyan ganyan lang kami pag walang amo. to think ako ang in charge sa office ng time na yan kasi may training si tita beth. bwahahahaha!!!

tell me, meron ba kayong ka-opisinang nagdadala ng giraffe sa workplace?? si eiselle lang yan. ang giraffe na yan ay si geoffrey. pag pinindot mo yung tenga nya, magsasalita sya ng:

"have you hugged your giraffe today?"
(pindot ulit) "i'll always stick my neck out for you!"
(pindot ulit) "come on, let's play! oh..i have to say that, i'm the toy..."
(pindot ulit) "come on, squeeze me!"
(syempre pipindot ka ulit) "ouch, not that hard!"
(pindot ulit sabay kanta ng) "i don't wanna grow up, i'm a toys 'r us kiiiid..."
(at sa huling pindot) "i love toys so much, I became one, ha-ha-ha!"

jologs as it may seem, eto ang compulsory picture sa infamous manila bay sunset. see my pose? nyehe.

ang title daw ng pic na ito eh "ang babaeng mukhang bading sa breakwater"

group pic for our franklin award. pasensya na kayo sa ibang officemates ko, ganyan na talaga sila eh, wala na tayong magagawa. you probably know who are the ones i'm talking about, buwahahahaha!!!


if there's one person na magaling sumira ng plano, ako na yun. wee. i can plan something, as in from a to z plantsado then when i don't feel like it na, i can dump it at once ng walang sabi-sabi. i perfectly personify PAG GINUSTO, MAY PARAAN. *evil grin* i won't bother to mention specific instances because it may only crack up old wounds. i am a peace-loving person pa naman. woohoo.

if there's one thing i love to do, it's to travel. pero puro drawing yun, as in. ang pinakamalayo kong nararating, ay ang lungsod ng... makati..ay hindi..batangas naman pala lately. i used to reason out na i want to save money (or wala palang pera to start with) that's why i don't get to travel much. but it's a very lousy reason. kayang kayang gawan ng paraan kung gusto ko lang. pero yung downside ng panira sa plano ang forte ko eh. what i notice lang is that i tend to make things happen pag last minute yung decision. like the punta fuego vacation, hindi na talaga ako nun sasama kasi nga nahulog ako sa hagdan di ba, and the lure of the beach may worsen my condition (plus inggitera kasi ako talaga). pero ewan ko ba what came to me at nung kinagabihan before the trip, naisip kong sumama at magpakita na lang sa meeting place. maayos naman. isip ko minsan, baka dapat hindi ako nagpaplano. hmmmm.

sa ngayon, gusto kong pumunta ng roxas city. hindi nga. hindi dahil (sa inaakala nyong pagka-crush ko) kay sen. mar roxas. pwede ba?! well, isa yun, pero hindi naman siya pumupunta dun ng madalas ano?! i have a friend who has been telling me good things about the province. i have this impression na sya pa rin yung typical province where everybody knows everybody. ala-stars hollow, hope springs, everwood, etc...

speaking of roxas city, there's this shirt from islands souvenirs that i really looove to have. it's this shirt that says BEWITCHING CAPIZ. wala lang. aliw di ba? sadly, wala pala nun dito sa manila branches...dun lang sa roxas city. that's why i'm super thankful to my friend kathy for her offer. she will buy and ship the shirt here and in turn, ipapadala ko sa kanya yung dec-jan issue ng people asia as soon as it comes out (o, jacs sampayan, ang marketing ability ko, ultimo pagshiship ng magazine nyo sa ibang kapuluan ginagawa ko!). fair deal na yun. kathy, aylabyu aylabyu talaga.

syempre wish ko lang wag drawing ang lahat ng ito. baby steps para sa total fruition ng mga ito.

Friday, November 26

I live for books. I breathe them. Really. Aside from uhm..never mind...basta I love books. Whenever I indulge in food or books, I do not feel a tinge of guilt when I look at my wallet and find coins na lang. That's how much they mean to me. Nyaha.

Anyway, I would like to share my newly bought books for the past 15 days. My sidebar profile says that my choice of books are wide-range; I get carried away by hype and friends' recommendations. I get lured by colorful covers, too.Cheap 'no? But I am slowly learning to define the genre that I like. But I would like to make my choices as open as possible. After all, I discovered that my choice of reading materials vary with my moods, too.

I plan to collect lit classics. I already have Homer's Iliad, Bram Stoker's Dracula, Crime and Punishment and Mary Shelley's Frankenstein (classic, eh?). This is just a part of the growing collection. Hope to read it soon, I only read a shortened version of it in highschool.

Another installment in the classics collection. Plus, this is (insert politician crush's name)'s fave. see, I told you I'm cheap. Buwaha.

I saw this book five years ago and I only chanced upon it behind Hillary Clinton's bio. This is about the woman with sixteen personalities...this was made into a TV movie starring Sally Field but I never saw it pa. I read there is a similar book, When Rabbits Howl by Truddi Chase, starring a man with (get this) 99 personalities. Whew.

Binili ko lang kasi mura. Hehe.

I bought this because almost everybody is raving about it. I had The Five People You Meet In Heaven since November of last year and they were raving about it by saying, "This is another good book after (Albom's) Tuesdays with Morrie."

Not just because she's also Judith but I really love Judith McNaught's romance books. As in her books made Evan and I tear at night, kunyari nakakarelate sa story/ies! I shied away from romance books, thinking that I had enough of them na but I felt na I may need this again para naman mainspire and hindi na lang puro conspiracy theories and murder and societal satire ang binabasa ko.

(The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night Time) This one I've been looking for since I read Fat Boy Saves World. In the tradition of Ian Bone's Fat Boy...and Dave Sedaris' Me Talk Pretty One Day, I am curious how this one would fare. I chanced upon a paperback copy in National last Sunday. Good buy na rin.

Two things that made me buy it: It was from the "bestselling authors of The Nanny Diaries (which I've never read but is hilarious daw)" and a line from the back cover that says, "Working in a world where a college degree qualifies her to make photocopies...(I just felt I may be able to comprehend my sometimes-demeaning-work pattern)".

(The French Lieutenant's Woman) I've been wanting to buy this along with Atonement (which I have not bought pa rin kahit parang sinasadya na nyang magpakita sa akin!) but it's so mahal. It was reprinted kasi so the cover is classy na and all. What do you know, naghahalungkat lang ako this afternoon sa Booksale and there it was...albeit the old copy...but hey, the content is still the same naman!!! Imagine, it's originally P699 in NBS and I only got it for...taadaah...P15! And nga pala, his book The Magus creeped me out in highschool!

My 4th Dominick Dunne book. Mr. Dunne fulfills my social climber fantasies, whatever that means. He's one of the reasons why I collect Vanity Fair, too.

And yep, I bought Ang Kagilagilalas na Pakikipagsapalaran ni Zsazsa Zaturnnah and man, it's so hilarious. It has a warning naman na it's for mature readers...and yung mga paconservative may be offended by some words. Pero hello, you should see how funny gay people are! And how resilient they are, how they can make everything easier to bear kahit may sariling hang-ups and kaartehan din sila sa katawan. Super funny, not only Zsazsa Zaturnnah (aka Ada) and her sidekick Didi!! Super!!! If this is made into a movie, parang di ko maimagine kung sino pwede magbigay ng justice sa role nina Zsazsa and Didi. Kudos to Carlo Vergara para sa isang napakakulit na masterpiece! Even the antagonists, the Amazonistas, headed by Stella Baroux, winner! I encourage you guys to buy one if you want to literally roll on the floor laughing!

(Note: All book images are taken from the Barnes & Noble website)
I've been hearing the remake of Walker Chris' How Do You Heal A Broken Heart for two weeks now. It is a duet, I dunno who sang it. I don't really like it. Walker Chris' version went out around 1994, if I'm not mistaken. Those were the days when I believe that crushes are true loves and that I can get pregnant by just sleeping with someone (and well, hugging him tight). And that the supposed "gestation period" is only a couple of hours. I used to have this fantasy that after sleeping together, I would wake up the next morning and surprise my "husband" over breakfast in bed that he's going to be a daddy. That's how pathetic I was.

Anyway, back to the song. As I said, I do not like it at all, no offense meant to the singers. They did not do justice to that beautiful and soulful song. Hay. I do not have a lovelife now and not having one is not a real cause for alarm, I'm telling you. But I still feel tears welling up my eyes everytime I hear the original version of this song:

I can't believe what I just heard
Could it be true
Are you the girl I thought I knew
The one who promised me her love
Where did it go
Does anybody ever know
How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never beat this much again
Oh noI just can't let go
How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never love this much again
(Oh no)Tonight I'll hold what could be right
Tomorrow I'll pretend to let you go
And were you ever what you seemed
Or was I a fool who fell in love
With his own dream
And now you say you want to leave
Start a new life today
Those words I thought you'd never say
How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never beat this much again
Oh noI just can't let go

How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never love this much again
(Oh no) Tonight I'll hold what could be right
Tomorrow I'll pretend to
Wake and put it all behind me
And find that I have finally found
A new life, in my soul
And find that I know how to let you go
How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never beat this much again
Oh no I just can't let go
How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never love this much again
(Oh no)Tonight I'll hold what could be right
Tomorrow i'll pretend to
Wake and put it all behind me
And find that I know how to let you go
How sad.

Another song is If The Feeling Is Gone by Kyla, sung by Ella May Saison in 1995 (?). Kyla is uhm...good... but I love Ella May's version more talaga eh. Mas nasasaktan ako sa version ni Ella May. Huwahaha.

Thursday, November 25


So this is what a zombie feels like. A walking dead. Heaven help me, I may not remember my own name in the next three minutes.

Grabe, I woke up at 8 am today and was awake for 2.5 hours only. Took a quick breakfast, prepared the plastic cover for 56 (yes, 56) of my books left uncovered pa and simultaneously listened to a radio show. What I planned to be a short nap before lunch took a long time and I woke up at 7 pm na!!! No one bothered to wake me up because they ALL thought I was in the office. Ano ba yun!

So there. Lutang na lutang ang feeling.

Wednesday, November 24

My Wednesday

I went home at 9:35 p.m. which is past my curfew. Bwaha. Today is Erwin's last day with the Consular Section and come Wednesday he's jumping off to "greener pastures" via SSA. Goodluck, mi hermano oso. We had a simple going-away dinner for him in Harbor View with the whole team plus Nanette of FPU, Tito Ton and Erick. Busog, super busog but everything I ate dissolved like ice in Sahara Desert kasi Tito Ton, Tita Beth and I walked from Boardwalk to Rob! Talk about pahirap sa katawan. To think my feet is killing me because I am wearing my Mom's tan pumps to match daw with my bag. Before that, tama bang mag-goodbye hug kami ni Tita Beth kay Erwin sa tapat ng statue ni Carlos P. Romulo on the corner of U.N. Avenue and Roxas Boulevard??? Well, gauge daw 'yun ng love namin kay Erwin. He's off to Mindoro for a quick rest and to see his Mom kasi super inggit na sya pag Eiselle's mom or mine calls the office's direct line just to ask what's up with us. Inggiterong frog. Bwaha.

I had coffee while waiting for the pics to be developed (will scan them tomorrow). 19 Starbucks orders to go and I can have one of their Year 2005 planner. Eto na naman ako, mapagpatol sa promo ng mga oportunistang mamumuhuhnan at nagpapaalipin sa konsumerismo. Bleh.

I am sure preparations for Holiday parties are up and running for most offices now. We will have ours (Consular) on December 10, again on the Century Park hotel. This time, we are using the Grand Ballroom. Lucio Tan is so gracious huh pero no, no, no. Everything has to be a fair deal. The theme would be Naughty and Nice (I will be naughty) but unfortunately I have not thought of my costume yet. I planned to dress up and pick a partner in "crime" and we will come as Bonnie & Clyde. Erwin left and naku, KJ naman lahat ng natitirang male employees sa amin, so I really should have Plans B, C up to whatever. It has to be something I can be comfy wearing for the rest of the night, ayoko ng palit ng palit parang si Kris Aquino sa isang episode ng The Buzz. I do have a role in our little presentation pero it's easier to cover up whatever my real costume is kasi I will play a consul naman. Plus, I am asked to facilitate the games I made for the party (will tell you about them soon but so far, my favorite is "Balloonatic"!) so I may not have time to change at all.

Hah, no pasok tomorrow because of Thanksgiving!! Honestly, hindi ko naman mafeel. For many of us, tomorrow is just a day off from work. Naipit pa yung Friday kasi nag-declare si Pres. Arroyo that instead of the 30th, non-working holiday na lang ang 29th. Brrr, I am one of those who was not able to file my leave on this day. Oh well, I really can't be absent din naman kasi Tita Beth filed a leave na rin. Gee, by Friday, it will only be Eiselle, Noime, Susan (who's deadma always, except when she asks for something) and I. Syempre, magbo-blog lang kami maghapon. Buwahaha!!

Oh, I bought a new book (again) tonight. Since I received my bonus I got to buy 10 books na. Will run them down on my next post. One thing's for sure...I am so super happy. I have Zsazsa Zaturnnah na (complete details in my next post)!!! Reading it gave me the greatest laugh trip I remember I had in recent memory. Super funny.

Another thing, I decided not to blog about my meeting with Mar Roxas. Wala lang. I would like to keep the details of that meeting close to my heart. Hehehe..neat 'no? I may end up not divulging everything so wag na lang. Maybe in my real journal na lang di ba? Basta one thing I will never forget was how he looked at my shoes, dirty as ever (and I like them gives me the feeling that the shoes are really being used), and only God knows what could he have thought of me. Buwahahaha!!! But then, he might not thought of it. Di ba it happens na you're looking at something pero you're mind naman tlaga is thinking of something else? I have a feeling it was like that with him. Or at the very least, ganun na lang. Otherwise, Mar may remember me, not as the one who worked for the Embassy, not the one who kinda "office-serviced" something, but the lady who has dirty square-toed black shoes. Hehe, at least unique! When Mar and I bump into each other he can just say, "I remember you! Ikaw 'yung may maduming sapatos di ba?" But hey, it is not as dirty as you think of it now. It's not just squeaky clean na parang bagong shine. Kung ganun yun baka isipin ni Mar Roxas nagpapa-cute ako sa kanya 'no. In his dreams. Hehe.


next: My new books! 2 new song revivals which make me appreciate the original versions more! Pictures!

Tenoch, oh Tenoch.

Judith Octavo and Tenoch Gonzales
  • Secretly conceived a handful of evil children.
  • Crazy about being able to chat far too often.
  • Are so cute.
Orchestrated by ianiceboy

Another variation:

Judith and Tenoch
  • Are rumoured to have adopted some robot girls.
  • Resent having to almost elope in private.
  • Have developed gills for extended kissing.
Orchestrated by ianiceboy

Hehe, you might be wondering who Tenoch is. He is Erwin's twin brother. I dunno whatever happened to Andoy. Maybe he got meningococcemia or something and he just disappeared into thin air.

Back to the quiz result, I dunno what's wrong with it...I don't have patience reviewing html codes, I just post and post and post. I believe a test like this is for livejournal users only so it's hard to put it in blogger without code hassles.

Back to reality, Tenoch is not real. He is Erwin's imaginary twin brother. Just like my cousin Peetyminy.

Monday, November 22

Is This A Good Sign?

I have long waited for this yet when it came, I felt guilty. See, I tried hard to veer away from this "obsession" for a month or two...I was unsuccessful on my first try but I managed to start anew. In the midst of controversies, I am gradually feeling a shift in my priorities. It's supposed to be good for me, right? Like, I am supposed to make a review of something but I lost drive to do so. I fashioned this update, wrapping up what happened in the past two weeks, but it burst like a bubble when I sat down in front of the computer. No matter how guilty I feel sometimes, I just think that this feeling is something I tried very hard to work on. Now that I am becoming more self-obsessed and less obsession-obsessed, I just need the momentum to feel good about it because ultimately, the former will bring me better results. The latter is just supposed to make me feel good but it is not real, it is something I share with many other people but in the long run...I only have me. So let this obsession slide down to the periphery basket. Things may even get better when I do it. I will miss it often but it will go on without me.

I should really love myself. I thought I do but I really do not.
WB to me!

I'm back. A prodigal blogger (blogspotter?) that's me. After realizing that the other one is simple yet limited, I decided to switch back here. But it does not follow that I will be a diligent blogger.

Have I told you about my new books?

My Mar Roxas encounter (and that he's not KM as what Noime told me hours before meeting him)?

My thoughts on being fat ergo unattractive?

My sudden preference for romance books?

My new blue umbrella?

I have not? I know.

And hey, I thank Eiselle for the valuable comment on my updated skin. I plan to work around different colors soon. Really, soon.

Monday, November 15

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Busy

While a relationship sounds nice, you're strapped for time
Whether you're legitimately busy or just making excuses...
... You don't give men enough of your time.
As nice as "instant love" would be, there's just no such thing.

Why Don't You Have a Boyfriend Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

Huwaat? This is absurd.
Like a fascinated little girl, I am currently so involved with my super plain xanga site. I don't have the whoa settings that this blog has but maybe that is what I'm looking for, really. Simplicity. No tagboard, no links, none of the works! But feel free to visit me there:

Saturday, November 13

I tried so hard to be useful today. I feel I did well naman. My Mom managed to drag my ass out of the bed and get me out to buy the things I said I wanted to fix my stuff. It was pretty productive and I did get to finish some important stuff.

And I started another blog at Xanga!! How about that, eh? I am pretty excited to work my way out there..or maybe I am just thrilled by the simplicity of it..and the fact that I can manipulate the background colors and all, something that I can't do here (I actually can but I end up ruining the whole skin---hey..I'm such an html idiot, what do you say to that?). So before going there (is there a "loyalty sensor" of sorts here in Blogger?), I wanna share some pics from last week's meeting with my highschool friends, Em and Neds.

That's Neds (Anedyn), me and Em (Mzarriz). Too bad, Lyndsey, Portia and Lhizette were busy with other things, otherwise, the barkada would have been complete.

Blurry, blurry. This was taken after they actually came to the meeting place...after making me wait for an hour lang naman!! But it's okay coz I got to read a few chapters of The Unbearable...

Em and me. Hahaha, Em's been complaining since the earliest days that her mouth is kinda big. Well, it is. Like when she smiles, it's obvious. Hahahaha!! Peace, Em!

Pa-vanidosa sa escalator. Em is actually my highschool bestfriend. We had a rather interesting history but she's one of the very few people who knows me well. Before this shot, both of us, out of the blue, said, "O, picture naman!" Talk about telepathy.

This is Neds and her boyfriend, Robert. Uhm, is it Robert? We just call him Papa R kasi!! Hahahahaha! He's a nice guy...and I am hoping that Ned's parents and sisters will finally like him. Hehe, dumaan lang yan sa Dencio's and we had a great time bashing Neds in front of him. Aliw!

There. You can check the xanga blog I made
here. It's too plain, I know, but I find my profile pic a whole lotta neat. Wala lang!

Thursday, November 11

Thank God for the veterans, we do not have office today. I never got to do my errands though as I slept practically the whole day. Hooray to me.

Finally, after lunch, the payroll problem was fixed and we got our bonus. The money just literally lands on your palm and plop! they're gone. Well, in my case most of it just went to my Mom who I owe a ton with my, "My, borrow muna ng (insert amount)". She could have gladly gave them for free but the proud me lists them down everytime, thus the payback time now. I am on a clean financial slate. I'll start borrowing from her for my Christmas shopping na lang. Huwahaha!!

And believe it or not, I didn't buy the books I kinda salivated on for the past months. That was so weird. I was actually in NBS and I can't choose what to buy. Maybe it's the arrangement of the books...the NBS bookshelves are all messy and you can't just have this "I'm in a bookstore" feeling. Parang hinalukay na malagkit. But I won't leave the store with nothing at hand. So kahit sapilitan, I bought the classsic Don Quixote (I was looking for Fyodor Dostoeyevsky's The Idiot but i can't seem to find a copy, so lazy to ask), finally Hot Six (the decision was long overdue - see, I already have the Stephanie Plum mysteries from 1 to 8 minus nga this sixth one; for the longest time that I am seeing Hot Six on the shelf, I can't decide if I wanna buy it coz I do not like the series that much - and last night was the time) and Jeffrey Deaver's The Empty Chair - now, I have not read any Jeffrey Deaver book, but i watched The Bone Collector which I didn't like, I bought this kasi it's well, by Jeffrey Deaver, and a friend recently told me that The Devils' Teardrop is a good read and it's from...yes, Jeffrey Deaver. I dunno what got nto me nga because Atonement was there..Carl Hiaasen's Hoot was there...but I didn't buy them. Weird. There was also Clive Barker's buti na lang I didn't buy the paperback because it is different from the hardbound illustrated version! It's like Book 2 na or something! And Jesus, The Art of Discworld (picture to follow), naiiyak ako when I saw it. It's the illustrated introduction of all Discworld characters! But it's so out of my budget coz it's for a thousand bucks! Damn!

So many thoughts inside me but I can't articulate them all. I need to recharge my phone. Ciao!

Wednesday, November 10


We've been karma-chameleoned! Yan kasi, counting the chicks before the eggs are hatched. Wa-i pang bonus, ahehe!! Ouch.

Online quizzes na lang. Got this from Maky.

You Are a Flashy Red Bra!

Outgoing, friendly, and fascinating.You're a charmer, with your pick of the men.But you want a man who's as magnetic as you are.You need someone who can keep up with your all night gab fests!

What Kind of Bra Are You? Take This Quiz :-)

Naks naman.."as magnetic as you are". Bleh.

Another one:

You'll Find Love Through Friends

Your friends get you better than any guy ever hasAnd they're the perfect people to introduce you to your soulmateSo look and act you're best with them, even if it's a girl's night outYou never know who they might find for you!

Where Will You Find Love? Take This Quiz :-)

Friends, friends, where art thou?

One more:

You'll Find a Boyfriend Within 3 Weeks

You're out enough to meet plenty of guys
And it shows, because a few are interested in you
Even if you haven't meet the right guy yet
He's standing just around the corner :-)

When Will You Have a Boyfriend? Take This Quiz :-)

Good Lord! The countdown is on! (shucks th-thr-three weeks?) And "standing just around the corner"? Freaky.

Monday, November 8


i didn't feel feverish this afternoon, thank God. have been extra diligent, finished more important cases than i usually do on a monday. i guess it was the good start pumped up by sitting in Carter's former hub. sarap dun eh. or maybe it's because it's..clean? Tita Ditos had a very promising development about meeting *ehem* but i'm not gonna dwell on it until it's there already. my highschool bestfriend Mzarriz and Erwin are textmates already. i am a certified subtle bugaw. ugh, i hope they get to meet soon, sparks may fly..who knows? i am still thinking if i wanna come...she wants me to, he doesn't want me i guess i have to ask for a sign (bleh). i planned to rev up my morning with a vanilla latte, but i ended up shaking and mildly palpitating even before lunch..then my mom called jokingly implying that i may have kawasaki syndrome..a whaat? on my way to my reading spot, Josh called me, and i know it was because of the constant prodding of the girls. his voice was nice, his laugh was so manly but you don't get to appreciate all that if ur walking along the busy street of padre faura. no matter how stable your mind is, you always end up blurting out pa-cute statements that u regret exactly after hanging up. oh, hell. anyway, i refrained from starbucks coz 1. i was a bit traumatized by the morning palpitation 2. it's expensive 3. it's expensive if you do it everday 4. it's expensive especially if there's still 2 more days before the next payday. i instead had the big chill's watermelon whatever-that-was. i plan to have all the basic flavors, and none of the carrot blend, whatever happens. cheaper, more nutritious, something new.

yesterday, i finally saw the renovated SM Makati. it was waaay better than the old one, and for the longest time, i almost got used to the verrry cramped SM space. this new SM is so vast, can't even remember and keep track of the sections. and because it's still new, it's still...brighter..cleaner...uh, let's see in about a year. but as of now, it's a real good place to walk through on a bleak sunday. mom and i bought some groceries and who did i almost bump into? no less than bogart. with eyes like that, i wonder if she didn't really see me. i quickly shifted my grocery cart, the efficient grocery cart driver that i am, to the direction of canned goods, just when i received erwin's text (i texted all of them that i saw her!) that says something about "magpagulong ka ng lata ng ligo o maling sa paa nya para matapakan nya". he can be a little mean sometimes. a little.

i am halfway through the unbearable lightness of being and boy, milan kundera is soo great. i am almost finished with the handmaid's tale and it's..just okay. i got to see my payslip today and i can't help but see how much i can allot for my books. i have to indulge in books. it's the only gift i can give myself! as for the books that my budget can't accommodate...hey, that what friends are there for (user!).

books. bluetooth usb. pirated dvds (hehe). new shoes. books. books. books. lest i forget, i still owe my financier a whole lotta bucks. financier=mom.

life is just so good even if i'm not making sense.

Saturday, November 6

busy, busy, lazy...

I chuckled last Saturday night with this exchange. This was from Gilmore Girls.

LUKE: Look at this place! Look at you. All you need is six dancing penguins and Mary Poppins floating in the corner to bring back two of the worst hours of my childhood.

TAYLOR: I don't think you had a childhood. I think you came out a bitter surly killjoy.

I'll update this blog later. *crosses fingers*

Friday, November 5

It's Friday and I'm not happy. I have not been happy lately. I cancelled my badminton game with Marie, Gracie and Alfred because I feel feverish again. I got scared when I looked up what could recurring afternoon fever be a symptom of, and voila! Tuberculosis, failing kidneys, and the likes! Who wouldn't be scared?? Anyway, I am more convinced that it still has something to do with me falling down the stairs a month ago. I have not sought professional (read: doctor) advice about it because the pain went by a week after. Ugh, the typical Pinoy. I noticed though, that when it's too cold in the office, it hurts. It even throbs at times. Weird.

But I will not go straight home either. I am comfy with the idea of a reading time; just have to be home on or before 7 pm because it could be Korina Sanchez's last night in TV Patrol. Mwahaha, she may..uhm..cry? That would be a first. Ahehehe. ABS-CNS's Dragon Lady crying on national

My backlog's not that earth-shattering anymore but I'm still not happy. Good Lord, when can I find that motivation that I've been looking for? Phew. I should have a.....soon. Uhm...soon.

I miss someone. Terribly.

I am meeting my highschool bestfriend tomorrow. She's a flight attendant for PAL now...something I don't know if she envisioned herself to be...but she sure fits into it. I'm excited despite my "never to be disturbed on Saturdays" rule. I need to go out more, really. But all these are all sketches...all blueprints...never put into fruition. Maybe because I don't have that much money...mwahahahaha!! Nah, you don't need lotsa money to go out. I am just so lazy.

Funny, as I type this, I am listening to Jojo's Leave. Can't help but associate it with Korina..maybe when the management asked her to leave, this song is playing on the background. Hahaha, torturer. But really, everytime I hear this song, I think of her, and the faces of the top honchos with matching pointing their fingers pa on the office door..."Get out...(leave)..right now.." And the Bridge part (whatever part it is)...maybe it's uhm..Luchi Cruz-Valdez singing the part..."Get oouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuttttttttttttt!!" I'm so salbahe. But try listening and then think of it, it's funny.

I hope to finish The Unbearable Lightness of Being tonight. Takano is so gago, he told what happened to the characters. Okay, okay, they all died. Bad treeep. But it's a nice read...I am inching away from the young adult genre (but I still want to go back to it once in a while).

Till tomorrow!

Thursday, November 4

Stressed, tired, depressed for no apparent reason.

Only a few things that makes me go on.


Happy people.

Hmmm..I should be counting my blessings, di ba??

By the way, ladies and gentlemen, lapis and pentel's JOSHUA PHILIP TONGSON FERNANDEZ:

Monday, November 1

When there is an issue yet to be resolved, expect your inbox to make you blurt, "Whoa!" when you check it.

Hay, I hope this issue will be resolved soon. I still feel bad about it but not as bad as I felt a couple of days ago.

Funny, na-LSS ko yung Leave ni JoJo and Strong Enough ni Stacey Orrico dahil super relate ko sa nangyari. Yung Leave, patawa lang. Yung kay Stacey...bagay esp yung first few lines. Get this:

As I rest against this cold hard wall
Oh will you pass me by
Will you criticize me as I sit and cry
I had fought so hard
And thought that all my battles had been won
Only to find the war has just begun

O di ba.

Not to count the chicks until the eggs are hatched but I am really looking forward to buy those books na when I receive my bonus. Simple treat lang naman for myself, nothing's wrong naman di ba? The rest...hay...dadaan lang sa palad mo. Eh pano, dami ko loan sa mommy ko. Hahahahaha!!!

Wala pang new ish ng Total Girl...eeww, ang mahal naman nung Aussie edition, P280?! Eh P75 lang yung local. Si Ashlee Simpson cover nya. Lindsay Lohan is in GQ! Ravishing pero....ewan. Baka feeling ko patweetums ever sya. Oh well, if Alexis Bledel would do that, mas shocking. Speaking of Alexis, she will be Lena in the movie version of Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants!! And the 4th season of Gilmore Girls will start on November 6. Yay...the teen in me.

Nothing extraordinary while visiting my relatives' tombs. Okay lang. Not that I didn't care...hindi naman kasi once a year lang yun dapat ginagawa. At around 4pm nakabalik na nga kami ni Mom dito sa Manila eh..bonding over coffee talking about the future (naks, kala mo super serious eh).

Got new books. The Hillary Trap: Looking For Power In All The Wrong Places (by somebody I think who feels so insecure of Hillary Clinton) and Dominick Dunne's Another Town, Not My Own.

Hay, pasok na naman bukas. Ganun ulit for 8 hours. Magpapalit na nga ako ng radio station eh. Pangit kasi reception (yun ba tawag dun?) ng Launch sa workstation ko. Yung Accuradio, okay lang kaso di ko type yung pagcacategorize ng songs. For two weeks, I've been in MSN Radio kaso puro Ashlee Simpson, Ryan Cabrera at Maroon 5 naman...parang, wala na bang iba??? Type ko lang yun pag play yung She Will Be loved kasi irritated si Eiselle!!! Hahahahahaha!!!

Ho-hum. Gonna post some pics tom. Hope that "it" will be over soon and "our camp" will be vindicated.

Saturday, October 30


It's been a long week!! I went home a bit late last night because I met up with Kathy and my goddaughter Asha, with her two other ninangs, Ninch and Madz. More about that later. Just want to post these Punta Fuego pics, though late.

This week we also had the second food tasting session at the Century Park. Mas okay ang selection ngayon compared last week, and the group is much livelier. Rej, Joy and nanette came to join, along with Ian and John so it's a bigger group with bigger appetite. Kahit katawang babae, bitukang bakulaw ako it is my principle naman not to eat anything that I can't pronounce. Bakit ba kasi it's common for these hotel-prepared foods na hindi mo mapronounce at first try ang mga pangalan. Yung isa sa mga desserts na pinatry sa amin even the waiter has had difficulty prnouncing it..kaya ask na lang layman's terms, ano ang tawag dun?? Bleh, pudding lang pala. Admittedly, masarap naman lahat, except for the veggie rolls that I won't try even if you pay me. The baby back ribs--oh mayn, true pala yun na pag masarap pagkain, titirik mata mo, hahahaha!! I hope we made a good selection for the guests this year. We are moving to a bigger venue than last year. It was not cramped naman last year but I guess CG is expecting a bigger turnout this year plus the gatecrashers na since red ID, alangan namang di mo papasukin di ba? Tss. We are having the party at the hotel's grand ballroom with a 300-person capacity. But the space will be maximized with the stage, the crepe and pichon stations on both sides, and of course the buffet table pa. as for the band, don't wanna dwell into it, pero the band last year, Flintstones, was soooo great. They were real performers talaga. Kaso bwiset, as in bwiset, these americans have this fascination for the Sexbomb Dancers...eeeewww!! Kahit Naughty or Nice ang theme, napakalimited ng repertoire ng mga babaeng ito no, pueo "awww" lang naman kayang sabihin nun, and I really doubt if they can sustain the Consular people's standards. Eeeeew di ba? Actually, CG does not want to have any celebrities in the party....kahit gratis...all the more pa nga kung gratis di ba kasi hihingi yun ng favor in return. Since the Sexbomb recently applied and they were amused, I suggested why not get Southborder?? Na-impress din naman sila sa band when they were in the office. Even Ms. Ging of PAL agreed with me (eh pano pala, Rainbow ringtone nya, hahahahaha!!). Better yet, get the in-house band of Century Park, baka mas makatipid pa. Hay, I dunno. In the end, sila naman magdedecide. Bahala sila.
I said it's a long week and the meeting yesterday with the bosses really made feel guilty. Siguro nga kasi tamad-ramaran naman drama ko for a year. Siguro if I had been exerting much effort mas lighter to bear yung sudden overhaul nila ng workflow namin. It is good, and I agree that all transition stages are never easy...imagine mo, galing ba naman sa isang post na malakas ang personality ng tao like Kiev...tapos mapupunta ka dito...hay. I felt that they are shaking our equilibrium. I hope lang this will yield good results. Ang mahirap lang, yung feeling na parang walang tiwala sa iyo, and they look down on you early on. It is okay to impose but you should review what are currently practiced dahil kami naman won't be here, won't be commended, won't be sought by other Posts for assistance, if we are not good at what we do. Oh well, signature naman nila nandun eh, bahala silang magmukhang tanga at bobo. I don't know if they know how clever and mean these Pinoy applicants and immigration lawyers can be. As they say, life goes on. And sino si Bisugo? Eh di sya. Hmph. tama ka Erwin, if you can't do anything, resort to name-calling!! Hahahahaha!!
Dito na lang tayo sa happy news. I met Asha finally!! She's the cutest. I was kinda surprised kasi hindi kosya masosolo because her other ninangs were there...maybe next time. Madami ding naikwento sana si Kathy...well, next time na nga lang. I actually know Ninch and Madz during our UP days pa but we never became close naman. They're nice naman and we're all awed by Asha. As I said, cute sya...pero hindi yung bata na annoying. She's at the stage where she imitates everything and everyone. I laughed hard when all of a sudden she chanted "Susan, Susan!!" We were like, "Sino si Susan?" Yun pala, si Susan Enriquez, di ba she has this show na Kay Susan Tayo? Funny. And her dad being a band member, and her hair that night na super curly, we were joking na baka hippie na sya in time. Aba, nag-start na sya mag-Peace! Peace! (with hand sign) to all of us, pati sa waiters!! Funny talaga. she was taken a back lang when the Don Hen servers started singing Happy Birthday to kasi naman, any two year old would be scared if moomoos sing to you no!! The servers were wearing costumes that night. They weren't actually scary, they were funny!! Sarap pagtripan. Kaya what Asha did was stare lang at them and when they left, that's when she started singing happy birthday to herself...matagal din yung kanta nya, kumbaga sa isang tape, parang naka-loop!! Hahahahaha!! I wish I could see her again soon. I am such a happy ninang, I plan to buy her anything cute, kasi super cute talaga sya. I am sharing some of her pics...pangit nga yung ibang shots kasi bad trip 'tong phone, she's so malikot kaya di ko makuha yung correct angle. Funny pa coz when we ask her to be still kasi kukunan sha, nawawala sya sa frame kasi she's trying to look for my face!! Aliw!! hinid naman narevive yung desire ko to have a baby just because I saw her pero grabe, she's so adorable.
I am so tired. I guess I should expect long weeks from now on. Raarr, pati yung web project ko with Chad and Weston, mukhang napabayaan ko na naman. Hay naku, Lord, help me. Cge, outtie muna!