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Welcome back to me!

Just had no time and energy to blog. I have not even religiously followed my reading time routine. A lot has happened though.

I have a new phone. Weee. Gone are the agonizing moments of just when you're in the middle of texting a very important reply, the phone screen would read "Insert SIM". Thanks to Mom who shouldered the cost because I really don't want to touch my depleting savings. Mwehehehe.

As usual, new books have come my way. I lifted my self-imposed moratorium on book-buying exactly two weeks after I decided to "implement" it. Blame those super cheap hardbound books from Booksale. Got Caleb Carr's Killing Time, a British chicklit, The Final Conclave, a rather old take on the Vatican scandal and conspiracies stirred by Angels and Demons and Day of Confession, which also tackles the conclave chuva but I bought it because the author was "the bestselling author of The Day After Tomorrow". Wala lang. Ganun ako eh. Aside from colorful covers, I tend to buy books based on recent hype. I'm such a cheapskate 'no? But I bought Neil Gaiman's American Gods and I intend to start it soon. It turned out to be a good deal as Erwin promised to lend me Neverwhere, if I enjoyed American Gods, and we would swap. Just last night, he told me about Ayn Rand's The Fountainhead, something that I pass by when I peruse shelves. Let's see. And speaking of books....

I finished Lucy Sullivan Is Getting Married and I enjoyed it. I also finished The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants and good thing I didn't give it up because it is really a heartwarming book. I realized that I've met a lot of people that I do not have a permanent set of friends who I can "share pants with". Well, the characters were still young, and I am quite out of their league, horizon-wise. Amazingly, out of sheer fascination, I related the characters to myself and three of my online friends, Patty, Tammy and Marie. Let's see...Patty could be Bridget, Tammy could be Lena, Marie could be Tibby and I could be Carmen. Hehehe. This is something that should not be taken seriously....

But this one should be. I am supposed to believe that I am off to bigger challenges in my "career" (I like the term!) since April of last year. I must be prolonging the illusion that since I am the youngest in the office, that should still give me more leeway. But the recent events had me realizing how real a real workplace is. I am proud to say, no matter what they think, that i am standing in the middle of all these. I may not gain the complete, unadulterated trust of "both" (invisible?) parties but I am free to connect with whoever I want. It will be hypocitical to say that I do not take sides. But in cases like this, it may be the wisest to receive each side, sew your mouth shut, and retain whatever's said in your brain, to give it some activity. It may even help me rationalize. Naks lalim no? Asteeg. But seriously, if there's one who's targeted for performance, one who has been branded to be emotional, one who has been the evil one, to many, all along, one who has been unreliable, and add to that their own league of followers...saan ka pupunta di ba? Save the fact that you cannot get out if you can't take the heat. I am trying hard to see the positive and negative to all of these. Yun nga lang, people may not--will not---always see things and try to comprehend things the way I plan to do. Most of them will surrender to being blind and side with what's convenient. And add to that this unconfirmed but disturbing news I got about the job evaluation by the State Department. Hay ewan. Frankly, on my way home last night, I tried to think of what I could possibly do to cope with the events forthcoming. And where did I arrive at? Worrying about waxing my armpits. Anyhow, I could almost see Chelli typing away an email after reading this. It won't be long, as she would probably email me separately about what's latest. The gist will be: "Fill me in!". And now that I mentioned Chelli....

I totally miss her. Syempre sasabihin ni Chelli kung tlagang miss ko sya bakit hindi man lang ako makapag-email. Syempre guilty look lang ang pwede kong isagot dyan. But she's terribly missed by the team. It has always been, "Naku kung nandito si Chelli.." Mahirap talaga if somebody goes away. Although just last week, I made new friends, sharing a common passion. Siguro ganun nga yun, some will go, new ones will come. And those who stay, depende na sa 'yo. There are those who remember and there are some na nagkakaroon ka ng effort to reconnect. At napag-usapan din lang yan...

I must have forgotten my former desire to have a "date" with my Makati-slaved friends. I intend to regularize it but it seems to go pffft because of schedule.I found a new diversion though...playing badminton with Joy, Daisy, Joel and Tita Marivic. Last time I went, I suffered muscle pains for the next four days. But it was fun. My boss is inviting me to go back to the gym but I have yet to give it a thought. Speaking of boss....

Na-influence ko na si Tita Beth, nyahahaha!! She is anticipating the DZMM Musikasaysayan TV coverage dahil kina Mar at Korina. Hehehehehe!! And I don't need to explain why I am looking forward to Sunday.

Welcome back to me. I am sleepy.